In Memory Of Jenalee

                     In Memory Of Jenalee Yoder  

                  November 5 '90- February 21 '07

The Loss of A Loved One
by poet720ylvs © 2004

How does one express the pain that you may feel?
As this pain is so great and you try so hard to conceal.
This pain you endure when a loved one has died;
Tears away at your heart as the loss seems magnified.

You know your loved one is now with the Lord;
but this was still someone that you truly adored.
The pain is indescribable, it is something beyond belief.
Nothing can compare, as it is an inconsolable grief.

How does one express the feeling of suffocation?
You suddenly realize this is an emotional confrontation.
What does God give us in the way of consolation?
He eases our pain with the Holy Spirit as this was His proclamation.

Although our loved one has gone home to be with the Lord;
It is hard to believe that they have come to their final reward.
There is an emptiness knowing this loved one has really gone;
They have faded away like the stars of a brand new dawn

There is fulfillment in knowing that our life is only temporary;
Jesus paid the price on the cross and we are the beneficiary.
Our Lord has told us He will be with us to the very end;
We need only to love Him as He is truly our best friend.

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 Here are a few pictures....

In Christ There are no Goodbyes

                In Memory of Jenalee Yoder          

                    Nov. 5 '90 - Feb. 21 '07    

  * Jen is waiting on the farside banks of Jorden, she is waiting drawing pictures in the sand, she'll coming running when she see's us. ( from Mom...can't wait)

  *Many many times I've had to lose myself in my fathers embrace, His grace has been sufficent and will continue to be as we journey on through life without her.

  *Through Jens death I have learned to surrender more and more...

  * recently I cried out to God "why, why did you take her home", then I heard from Him. "I had purposes to fulfil" that has since been a great comfort when I'm struggling in the valley.

  * mothers, you with daughter's, if you struggle with what to be thankful for remember to thank God for you daughter's.

   * Relationship's create best of memories...

   * trust God to be in control even when you feel out of control

   * grief is best endured when you cease trying to play God...

   * see Jesus in the storm

                                               Jenalee's mother

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              This picture set's in the kitchen window

» MercyMe

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

Christmas In Heaven

                    Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees

around the world below,

with tiny lights, like heaven's stars,

reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular;

please wipe away that tear,

for I am spending Christmas

with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs

that people hold so dear,

but the sounds of music can't compare 

with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you,

the joy their voices bring,

for it is beyond description,

to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me.

I see the pain inside your heart,

but I am not so far away.

We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones.

You know I hold you dear,

and be glad I'm spending Christmas,

with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor,

or the peace here in this place.

Can you just imagine

Christmas with our Saviour, face to face?

I'll ask Him to lift your spirit,

as I tell Him of your love.

So then pray for one another,                                   

as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful,

and let your spirit sing.

For I'm spending Christmas in heaven,

and I'm walking with the King!

                                 ~ Jenalees Family

        As children of God, He gives meaning to our meaninglessness

               hope to our hopelessness

                              reason to our senselessness

                                               purpose to our aimlessness                        

                                                                 strength to our weakness

                                          courage to our faintheartedness

                           and blessed deliverance from our bitterness.

                        Born ~ November 5, 1990 

 This next letter was written by mother on Jenalees 16 birthday last year ~  

I'm so glad you can drive all by yourself soon. You are my only precious daughter at home anymore! Let's spend these next few years together in a good memory way! I love you much and care much about about your future...praying that you look to Jesus and find out who you are in Him. You are a precious soul, I care for you for you, you are a beautiful young lady! Keep yourself for that lucky guy, that will be sent, Lord willing!

I Love you & Pray for you ~ Lovingly Mom

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                   A letter written today ~

Written November 1-07 by Jenalees Mom ~ Marie Yoder

Well, as a family we are now facing Jenalees birthday November 5. As painful as it feels, that will never change 'it'. I have never known till these last 8 month, how much pain and grief a person can bear and still be "ok", so to speak! God has shown Himself so strong to me, He has not dumped me when I tell Him how disappointed I have been. I have struggled with anger, peace enters my heart when I just tell Jesus how I feel. He gives me relief! Jesus keeps telling me, "just trust Me, I have a plan." His ways are not our ways.

We miss Jenalee so much, life will never be the same! I often feel so alone around the house, there is Bobby and the boys, but no women to chat with. Those dreams I had for us the next few years were snatched away, in a blink, her last smile, those final words, the look in her eyes as she walked out the door for the last time that morning...oh it rips out my heart...

Recently I have been in her room alot, her shoes set there that she had on when she was driving for the last time, they still have drops of blood on them. I stand gazing around, her bed is empty but I found a hair on it, only you who have had experience would know why hair could hold any meaning. Holding her purse I look inside, there are her drivers license. How well I remember that big happy smile, and the way she walked after finding out she had passed to drive. I still find cash, walmart receipts, and the clothes she planned to wear after work. Being in her room by yourself around 3:00 am can really bring sadness and heartache.

Soon and very soon we are going to see the King... Till then I will keep traveling on in this journey. He is the God of the impossible! My family has heard me say that "she is gone and we have to go on". Oh, this is just what heaven means to me, to meet our loved ones and be with Jesus forever! I I often need to run to his outstretched arms! We will see Him face to face, and our loved ones. He tells me to lose myself in His embrace. God is greater then the pain, she is now a part of the angels band. How I try to grasp that! It literally takes your breath away, at times I have to hold my chest when all by myself, I go deep in these thoughts, she was so close to my heart. Oh we miss Jenalee so much!! In this pain and loss He has promised to be with us, now and in the future. Waiting to see you Dear One! ~ Jenalees heart broken Mother, Marie

                                           Two older birthday pictures ~ what a sweety!